I AM A BIG, FAT FAILURE!!!!

I can't control my eating. I keep binging and purging. I've lost weight but it was probably all water weight. Therefore, I am still fat and I am still the same. I am fasting on the weekdays, only 200 calories if I must eat (i.e. I'm starving or I get made to eat). Exercising 30 minutes a day. 500 calories on the weekends. I need to do this, for myself. To prove that I am strong, that I can do it! Thanks Nyx!!!!!!

Day 1

Day 1=bad :(

Mothers

I told my mother that I'm in a contest to lose the most weight. All she said was that I have an eating disorder and that I shouldn't. Nobody will support me and my strength :(

Caskets

So my mom is watching a documentary. It's talking about making wider caskets because people are getting fatter. :( I want to be in the skinest casket possible.

Blah

I'm kind of mad at myself for eating a ton but w/e. Tomorrow is a new day :) Also, I'm new at this blogging thing so if anybody could help out with anything, I'd appreciate it. Thanks in advance.